Be honest with yourself about what you really want. Don’t lie about what you want or why you want it. There is no point pretending that you want something other than what you do.
What do you want the most? Do you prioritize it above all else? If you prioritize something other than what you want the most, you will get something other than what you want the most. Any effort outside of your prioritized desires will necessarily lead to less than what you want the most, guaranteeing disappointment. While you pretend you want something other than what you truly want, the best you will get is what you are pretending to want. It is more likely that you will obtain neither, since many outcomes require full focus that a divided desire cannot provide.